Sunday, November 29, 2009

~Independant Life~ (part 1)


充实的生活是为自己打造的!! Enjoy my life... study hard, do appreciate in my friendship n watever i hav now...
Independant?? ya...sure...bcuz im live at outside wif some housemate...need to care each others....help each others as well !!!
DSC...a good place to stay and good environment for study! but a lot of entertainment ...which can reduce our stress n spread out all d unhappy things at d same time!! All my fren here....very kind,friendly,caring, insane..lol...n bla bla bla...nice to meet them^^
This is my 1st time to stay independantly at outside without family members....my feeling ...sometimes is good...sometimes is bad too! Good feeling cum frm enjoying my young adults life wif frenz summore can study 2gether...sharing n do smth awesome (which can cheer up myself.....lead into "extra-ordinary lifestyle"...lol)
Bad feel....is bcuz of home-sick....miss my family too muchhhhhh!!! miss my home!! miss every1..everythings in my sweet home!!! >.<>
For me, frenz quite important....many type of fren....closer fren,hi-bye fren,sincere best fren,gossip fren,colleague,coursemate,classmate,net fren,special fren,celebrity fren,n bla bla bla~ many many more.....
d moment being 2gether....hav fun..laughing....d precious time set up in my mind, its so happy!!
study...discussion...assg n project...do research 2gether,help each others to complete d work, d feeling hard to give explanation...its jz nice!!! hehe~
Im still considering smth....myb next year i wil move to cyberjaya, bcuz my uni damn far away frm my living place =.=
still finding a room ovr thr....which can share is better!!!
~joyce wil update her "Independant life" story then~

痛入心扉!

失去的东西,的确不能得回来。。。一去不回头!!
伤透的心灵也难以补回,因为伤口太深了!
一时之间,身边失去了最重要的东西。。。一件一件的离我而去,心灵脆弱的乔尔思不知该如何而失去了方向!!!
有谁能体会到呢? 谁能真诚的当我的聆听者?有谁可以告诉我真正的开心生活从哪儿得来?
之前的我是怎样?现在的我又是怎样呢?

一个特别为你安排前程。。不段努力辛苦工作,早出晚归,时时刻刻担心你提醒你。。甚至为了给你充实的生活而愿意提起忙碌的生活。。。一句怨言也没有,也不会因为压力而出气在你身上,反而开心地。。还带着笑容的脸颊回到家里!!! 她的一生就。。只是为了这个家吗?为的是。。。

除了怀念。。我还能怎样?振作起?我知道。。。可是有这样容易吗?每天想念着。。是因为? 我终于明白 “子欲养而亲不在”的这个真正道理了!!是彻底地明白噢!


对对对!我应该好好计划我下一部因该怎么做。。因为再也没有人时时刻刻地守护在我身旁,没人能够给我真情的温暖,没人聆听我的心声,没人给我特别欢乐时光,也没人可以用那真诚的心为我做一切一切!!! 伤心。。心痛。。寂寞。。哭泣。。怀念。。悲哀。。无靠。。等等!

告诉自己。。。我可以的!! 我要以前的我,就算找不回。。我也会从新建立起!事实,我可以吗?? Mummy。。请您告诉我吧!对不起,我不应该这样。。。不应该让你操心,我长大了,应该要会想。。这样Daddy 就没那么压力了! 我会的。。你在别的世界里要比在这里活得更好。。没有烦恼。。身体健康噢! 放心吧!我知道。。我应该怎样做的。。现在的我只须要时间。。对不起!! 对不起。。。没用了,因为你再也听不到,我要做。。可是你却看不到。。我就以安慰的心态。。“你在天之灵”一定看得到的。。。我一生中最敬爱崇拜的妈妈。。。你听得到吗??? ~我爱你~

或许我不是100%达到你要求的好女儿。。可是我会努力的!! 我真的真的有很多话要与你谈。。可是。。。。
我分分钟都觉得很无靠。。失去了方向,自信心也没了!! 真的对不起!!

很难受。。。很难受!!!T.T
实在太多东西了。。不说了。。更累了,到此搁笔!